How it all started

So this is it, I’ve made it through the proverbial five years.  It has been hard, I will not lie about it, but it has been worth it. I mean, the mean treatments, the pain, the loss, the anguish, it all brought me here. I don’t know if all of it was necessary, I know that I didn’t like it, but I know that it worked. I am here today and I am free!

I didn’t celebrate my first three anniversaries, life had taken a funny spin; and I didn’t even remember  or was important to me when it was that I got diagnosed, even more, I was not thinking that it was a meaningful date, it was just a remembrance of something awful. But last year, on my 4^th anniversary, things had settled down and I had time to reflect, it hit me: I wanted to do something for myself; I wanted to celebrate with friends and music. The New Orleans Jazz festival was the spot and it was wonderful. That sole experience brought me back, made me appreciate that I am here still, that there are many things to enjoy and celebrate and that I want to be part of all of it. I gathered that it was the anniversary of my new opportunity, of my new life.

Just as I was coming back from that trip I realized that my next anniversary, the definitive five, the proverbial anniversary, was around the corner.  I had to start planning; I had to do something that would change my live that would make it all worth it.

Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results is how Einstein defines insanity.  The quote from this brilliant man gave me a very powerful insight. It resonated close to heart:  If I wanted different results I had to change the way I went about it. I set my self for change!

That sole realization brought me to where I am today: See, the day that I got diagnosed a part of me died, I didn’t realize it then, but that day a little part of me broke. I had lost the battle even before I started to fight. My memories are without sound, I see people rushing around, looking worried, but I don’t hear their voices. During my treatment both my mother and brother passed away, both cancer victims.

After treatment was over, I found myself without my body or my mind. My mind had run away during treatment, and my body was so battered that I could not recognize it. My life seemed over. I was outdated in my career, jobless and in the middle of a worldwide crisis. I could not understand what was going on. I kept blaming the world around me about how I felt and the decisions I made. I was out of control.  I didn’t know that a new part of me was on the way, waiting to be born, waiting to be discovered. It took a lot for me to realize that I was being reborn, not exterminated. I only had to set my mind to it, and I would be renewed.  It took me a while… I was too scared.

It is all over now, two years of treatment and three years of convalescence later I am finally back. I am not the same woman, not even close. I don’t sound, think or look like the woman I used to be. I have gone through so much that ended up with only two choices; I was to be scared and angry the rest of my life, thinking that I lost everything, and waste this wonderful opportunity, or I was going to make the best of it, accept and embrace what had happened to me, and be happy just because… The music made the choice inside of me a lot clearer. It wasn’t a rhetorical question any longer. It was right in front of me, I had to make a decision and I did. I quit my job, moved to sunny California and changed my life from the bottom up.

I have turned my life around dramatically, with wonderful results. I feel great and I look better than 5 years ago, when I started treatment. From my eating habits, to my spirituality, everything is my life gravitates towards a more natural and healthy lifestyle. I am working on new ways and new habits to improve my life. I am not perfect by any means, just working on being as well as possible, as happy and as fulfilled as I am meant to be, as I deserve and want to be . Nowadays I am a hypnotherapist. I started the discipline to help me on my journey, but once I realized what an incredible tool this is, I have started a practice to be able to share this wonderful gift.

A big part of changing my life has been eliminating stress and other poisons from my life. We all read from the experts that pesticides and plastics are poisoning us, but it is not easy to get away from our daily habits and routines. Some people think that “healthy food” is bland and boring, other people think that living organic is too expensive and complicated, or that exercise is hard and tiresome.  We can save our health cutting back on drugs, our food can be our medicine cabinet, saving on our health and our pocket at the same time. Thinking that I am polluting a little less, both my body and the environment makes me proud a strong. This is my humble contribution.

I  like to share with all of you how I have been able to get out of such funk and get on with my life, happy and productive. By posting  this blog I am sharing with you the tips and tricks that brought me back. I am today healthy in body and mind, feeling good and looking fantastic. I didn’t enjoy what brought me to this more natural, kinder way of life, but I certainly enjoy my body and my life at lot more. I would like to share some of the healthy meals that I prepare, bursting with flavor and healthy nutrients, beauty and health tips and healthier lifestyle everyday tips to make your life easier and more enjoyable all around. I would like to inspire all of you to share some of your ideas, making a community out of our good sense and experiences. I will post, but I encourage people to share their own, make it rich! From hair and skin care to a sensible healthy diet, we can share about it all, make your suggestions and I will bring it on as a topic. I rescued some old wives’ recipes and natural remedies that I would like to share with all of you. I have researched all of them and contrasted them with medical opinions. Sharing this makes me feel good, brings me lots of joy and makes my creativity go wild, why wouldn’t I want to do it? It is enough that it may help one woman with her self-image, or encourage some to take a natural cooking class, or join a yoga club. I have been there, I still need encouragement and support for many of my challenges. I would like to inspire people of any gender of age to enjoy themselves and their lives by feeling and looking better. A healthy look is a sexy look!

Life is an adventure; let’s make it good, full of discoveries, full of light . Let’s make this page our page, a place where we can all post our concerns and questions, resolutions and resolves. I would like to encourage everybody to participate and post ideas and questions, resolutions and resolves, whatever is on your mind regarding our conversations. This page is to be a place where you can come to find out about new ways of improving the way you look at life. Just think that “She” will look right back at you in exactly the same manner as you look at “Her”. You are invited to ask questions and challenge what is posted by me or others. Let this place be a safe room for all of us, where we can all share, learn and discuss, but also a place where we can all share our own little tricks, our own little magic.

*Notice: as a precaution, Please remember to inform your doctor regarding any changes in your habits or life style.